Words cannot express how we feel right now. The bottom line is that we will NOT be adopting the little girl that we had named Alison. Two months ago we first saw her picture. Two months that we have loved this little girl, prayed for her, and spent preparing our home for her and a beautiful life with her. And now, that dream is gone. I don't understand. Am I supposed to? I do trust God whole-heartedly and know that He has a good plan for our lives and one day maybe I'll know why this had to happen. But for now, I can still pray that this little girl will find her forever family and be forever happy. I will never, ever, ever forget her!
I know you're wondering what happened and I don't want to go into all the complicated details. But there was a situation with the orphanage (specifically the orphanage director) that Alison was from and so our agency is no longer working with this specific orphanage. Since we and one other family had not been assigned our court dates, our adoptions were stopped and our children were returned to the orphanage. There are other families that have upcoming court dates and they need prayer that this orphanage director can get his act together enough so they can make it through court smoothly.
What now? We go back on the Waiting List. We're still requesting a girl and are approved for a child up to 8 years old. How long will we wait? Will we get to travel this year? I won't even dare to make a guess.
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words can't express how sorry we are about this loss and the whole icky situation. praying for your family...
I'm so sorry! I know it's hard right now, but don't lose faith. God has a plan for you guys. We will be praying for all of you.
I can't imagine how you feel as reading this knocked the wind out of me and I haven't stared at her picture. I can't imagine what you're going through. We will keep your family in our thoughts.
I am just so sad over this whole situation!!! I don't understand it either .. I feel like I have so many questions ... But Susan, please know that you and your family and Alison ... you are all in our prayers and we pray that you will find comfort in knowing that others care and are upholding you in prayer. Please stay in touch.
I'm so sorry...this is just devastating news!
Susan, this is truly devasting. As a fellow CHI propsective parent, I celebrated the day you announced your decision to adopt an older child. The situation is heartbreaking. I am so sad for all people involved--you, your family, and the precious little girl. I echo your sentiments about trying to understand...it's beyond our human capability to truly understand why these things happen. Please know that thoughts and prayers are being sent your way and to Ethiopia.
Susan, I'm hopeful that you are connecting with Julie (the other CHI parent dealing with the same situation). If you haven't, check out her post today as she is pursuing an alternative path. In case you don't have her blog address, it's http://lovelaughterlaundry.blogspot.com/
-Kathy
I'm so so sorry this happened.. we lost our first referral and I know that after staring at our baby's photo for 4 months that this is one of the hardest things that I ever went through.. wish there was something to say to make you feel better, but I know there probably isn't...
Hi,
I just found your blog and wanted to send prayers your way! I too lost a referral while involved in an adoption from Vietnam. There are no words to describe your feelings and emotions...just know that God does have a plan. I truely believe that. I realize now that the journey to my daughter from Taiwan was God's plan-not mine.
I thank Him everyday for the broken roads that led me to my amazing daughter. It will happen for you too! Like you, I pray for the daughter I lost and hope she feels God's love and presence each day-
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